So...as i sit here playing on my new lab top for COLLEGE i realize that my life is passing me before my very OWN eyes! I leave for COLLEGE in 17 days... and Im not even ready for it! I mean dont get me wrong I AM MORE EXCITED THAN NETHING to get out of my house thats why Im counting but... Im NOT ready to grow up and make my own decisions and LEAVE my FRIENDS... Friends i have known since i was itty-bitty... I mean who knows who i may meet at central.. hopefully good people and maybe the man of my dreams.. but lets NOT EVEN think about that right now.. I mean for heaven sacks its scares me already that one of my friends is already getting MARRIED!! I dont even want to think or say that M word for another 10 YEARS... for all you GRADUATES that know what I am going through have any of you guyz thought that OUR CLASS.. or FRIENDS will be married or engaged OR MAYBE even having KIDS.. in 4 years or less... i know i know you DONT even want to THINK about it.. but ITS TRUE.. hate to break it to you guys...and in 4 or 5 years some of us will be done with school FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.. never thought that would happen huh... i mean you thought high school FLEW by.. just IMAGINE!! I cant believe the class above us are already through one year of college and are sophmores ALREADY!! I cant imagine( as much as i want it) living on my own.. paying for EVERYTHING.. AND I MEAN EVERYTHING..finding that special someone.. finding a REAL job..high school grades DONT matter nemore.. its now COLLEGE grades... maybe moving out of michigan.. having my own place... prob. never seeing half of my graduating class ever again not even at the 5 or 10 year reunions( which i plan on attending Kris Shear just to let you know).. I mean BAM i thought college was going to be fun and games and it would be great to grow up.. BUT SCREW THAT.. I want to be a kid again.. i want to go back to elementary school and start over again...not saying i regret NE of it..IM JUST NOT READY YET! I just want to stop time.. 18 is a perfect age to be at for the rest of my life.. well maybe 21 i havent gotten there yet.. but i would like to stay at one of these ages for the rest of my life!
Im going through a ruff time right now.. and i dont even know where to begin. Im leaving soon.. and i want to hang out with as many people as i possibly can, i just put in my 2 weeks for work, finding out my ROOMMATES for college, trying to boost my relationship with "THE BIG MAN"(God), I have this boy who i really really really really like but it sucks because he lives far away and i cant afford gas and he is going to be a senior next year so he wont even be in college.. and i dont know what to do about that cus i want it to work out, My girls are leaving soon and I dont know what I am going to do without them( im scared out of my mind), i have to deal with all this GETTING ready for college stuff, AND on top of that... they say to you that you have to figure out your MAJOR.. or basically figure out what you are going to do for the rest of your LIFE.. i mean COME ON NOW.. Im just a kid GIVE ME A BREAK.. i dont even know what i am doing TOM. let alone the REST OF MY LIFE!!
Im just GROWING UP AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!!
IS ANYONE ELSE SCARED OUT OF THEIR MINDS... AND ARE NOT READY TO GROW UP YET?!!
Hate to break it to all you upcoming seniors.. isnt it about time you guyz start applying to colleges?? Yah and before you know it.. you are half way through your senior year already.. you find out what college you got into.. you pick one.. and BAM you have your LAST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL...and THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN... you are walking across that stage as they read out loud your full name.."Kari Beth DeLong"... and THEN.... CONGRADULATIONS 2006(or in your case 2007) for graduating high school.. you may now TURN YOUR TASLE!!
AHHHHH ITS SOOO SCARY and then you will be right where I am ....
17 days until you leave FOR COLLEGE!
~D Baby~ | 
